im taking french.. but this has nothing to do with that.

everyone gets caught up in fairytale.

in things that they hope will be.

in the mystery.

in newness. and surface. and

not knowing at all.

the first phase is the best i think that's what they say.

but i am not a fraction of me

not a fraction of anything

and i feel that maybe i am frowned upon

for opening up so entirely

that other kids on the playground want me to keep my secrets so that they wont have to tell theirs.

and i don't ever want to be something on a shelf or television screen

something that cant be taken down and pocketed

something that cant be worn when you are getting muddy

i don't need allure

not even sure what exactly it means.

but i like that word. so i think ill use it.

but i don't want to be out of touch.

please, don't expect me to be.

it is easy to admire one thing about someone.. like say.... a dance that you see.

it is harder to know all the curves of someone.. and still

and even still,

you love them.

in their nakedness

accepting that brilliance only comes infrequently.

right

so.......

maybe like....

if you’re gona give you have to give even if you get nothing in return its just the way you do things for others because you want to not because you expect them to do something for you in return right? Ok. Remember that ashli

night